Don't ask how come I'm not pulling my hair or going crazy and all that jazz...

This is, as it turns out, the truth!



I love my ship.

It has been the foundation for a new source of creativity in my life that I didn't know I had. It has gotten a place in my heart that belongs to it, and that, no matter how many other great obssessive passions come my way, will always be there!

I adore the idea of my ship. It has brought a new meaning to my life, and, ever since I came across it, my life, and my perception of love with it, has changed. In too many ways, many of them that will remain with me for as long as I shall live.

In this sense, H/Hr has meant to me more than any of the passions I've had in my life. And that's saying something because I'm too passionate for my own good.

I think I had a very bad, 90210 idea of love before Harry and Hermione came into my life. Or maybe I had none, for they came to live when I was 15. And, with few and rare exceptions, no 15 year old has a clue about love.

I've spent 5 wonderful years, shipping H/Hr. I've met some astonishing people in fandom! I've written several stories I'm very proud of, and it was because of H/Hr fanfiction, that I'm now writing my novel.

I've witnessed some of the most spectacular displays of creativity in these 5 years. And those experiences, have made me a new creative artist! My art has changed since I began to love H/Hr! I've discovered layers of myself as an artist that I wasn't aware of.

And this, all and through, has made me thank the author for her books. For the wonder that I thought she had laid on. And for the beauty of what I saw in it.

I thank her for the pages upon pages of what I thought was a true story, of love, friendship and bravery. I thank her for the joy that I once felt picking up a HP book at the stroke of midnight, waiting eagerly to unravel the magic within.
I thank her for 5 years of inspiration, during which I thought she was a female iconic figure, that, not only was a compromised artist, but was also a refined character builder.

I thank her for 5 books of a role model that I've discovered is about the strongest of my life, only compared to Sex and the City's Carrie; I thank her for 5 books of Hermione.
I thank her for 5 books of an emotional, soul feeding hero, who, for the first time since I can remember characterized a hero who had his feelings before his actions (though only because I consider Lestat the Vampire an anti-hero).

That being said;

"Maybe it's time to be clear about who I am. I am a person, looking for love! Real love. Ridiculous, inconvenient, consuming, can't live without each other love. And I don't think that love is here in this expensive suite in this lovely hotel in Paris. It's not your fault, it's my fault. I shouldn't have come here."
~Carrie

Now...

I've come to terms with something.

Love is not written in those books. Even though it was canon which inspired me to believe in H/Hr, it truly blossomed when I came into fandom.

H/Hr is about love!
Real love!
Ridiculous, inconvenient, consuming, can't live without each other love!
Friendlt, brave, strong, loyal, respectful love!


And I don't think that woman ever thought of writing love in her books.
I don't think that love really is in that book.

And, here, as it is, I'm going to have my go at her.

Because, once in a bloody book of hers, she wrote that, in other words, this whole shitty story was about doing what's right, instead of what's easy.


And she's being deadly hypocritical right now.

I understand that sometimes you write things because they are what they are to the story, and not because you truly believe them. For starts, I don't think that someone, writing a script for Desperate Housewives, actually believes in every act or word of Bree.

However!

When you make that the central plot line or, say, the central ethic concept of your story, and go through it over and over, and reinforce it at every chance, then, at some point, you must understand that you're somewhat binded to that statement.

What reasons she may have to go OBHWF, I will not, ever, understand them. I don't feel the need to, therefore, I don't want to.
But I can say that, to me, it will always seem easy, instead of right. And, clearly, the bad writing, the lazyness with which the subject was treated, and the lack of developement in HBP, proved me right!

I am not delussional, thank you very much. I am passionate, intense, serious and well read. And, still, even though I live in the 21st Century, and even though I've seen the dark times that humankind is currently going through, I've chosen to believe that love can happen!

And, if that is a dellusion, then, call me delusional and leave me to my delusions!


But that's my philosophy!
Humanity needs to chase dreams! And... we don't set limitations when we set the dreams we want to go chasing!
And, if some humans agree with me, you, Ms Author of Harry Potter, will have a little chat when my designing reaches people.

Because if, God help, I'm right, then you and I will meet someday, and I'll be able to ask you, face to face, how come that love is such an abstract concept in your life, that it can't reach people who actually have a pretty good idea of what love should be.


I guess it'd be overstated to say I won't quit my ship.


But I'll clarify that I will, indeed, join the chipping for the anvil and the Pumpkin Pie.


And just in case that's not nearly as clear, then here's this:

"Oh, yeah. You're just friends."

"That's right."

"You're *not* friends. You'll never be friends.
You'll be in love till it kills you both. You'll fight, and you'll shag,
and you'll hate each other till it makes you quiver, but you'll never be
friends. Love isn't brains, children, it's
blood... blood screaming inside you to work its will.
*I* may be love's bitch, but at least *I'm* man enough to admit
it."

Word. Spike, Word!


Cheer people! Don't mourn! This is where love has always been!